Diatribe Of A Mad Bassist

Ever felt that you’ve come to a point where you are no longer needed the way you were used to?

Well, I have. And that’s basically what I’m feeling right now.

I’m not about to go on a crazy rant or a slime-fest rignt now, but yeah, I guess it’s a stupid feeling but I somehow just can’t help but feel this way.

“Yes, Mervyn, you have something bigger to look forward to.”

Yah.. I know that, I don’t need you to tell me that. Give me something new. There are only so many times you can use a cliche before it gets tired of itself. And moving on to something bigger doesn’t mean I wanna forget where I started. That will always be my ‘home’, where I picked up what I got.
Maybe I’m just thinking childish-ly, maybe I’m just thinking too much. I don’t know. But this is just what I feel.

Right now from what I see/feel (which may be very wrong), basically everything I’ve tried to build up over the years is gone.. taken away..  oh well. What can I do anyway? Sometimes I just come to a point where I’m in a mode of resignation. Hai..

Dunno la.. seems the reminders of it is always coming .. well done…

To my friends who have heard me whine countless of times, I’m sorry. But these stupid feelings/thoughts just keep coming.